I have lost a child

I lost a love

I’ve carried a burden

I saw the invincible defeated

I felt empty and worn

I’ve kept a secret

And I’ve said too much

Relationships have become tattered and worn

Walls were torn down and reconstructed

I have cried just once

Wept many times more

I’ve felt numb

And I boiled with contempt

I made many mistakes

I have rehashed good and bad

Visited new places

Tried to forget

Given more than I could afford

Ran on empty

I have bent

I have broke

I have conceded

I prayed

I wished

All I want to know is……so what now?